What to do....?

I'm currently passing time in the college library and thought I'd do so writing my blog. It doesn't feel right to write something so personal in such a public place, even something that is open to public viewing. Nobody's reading over my shoulder I'm sure but I'm concious they are. Why am I so afraid of being judged or ridiculed by some unknown anyway, is my identidy really that insecure, i fear yes.
So the band has continued to go well, really well infact, better than I could have imagined and I've done alot of imagining. I here these words in my head constantly. "Greater things are yet to come", that excites me.
I spoke in church yesterday about the band, a little about what we're doing and why, mainly sharing the vision and giving a call out for support in prayer and for a possible drummer. At the end 2 people came up to speak to me, neither a drummer but both with exciting things to say. One was a woman who said that the whole time i was speaking she had some words from the bible going through her head, i don't remember what she said exactly and i haven't searched for it so i'm paraphrasing but it was something like "you make the Lord's face radiate", that was a truly encouraging word to hear. The second was a guy called Ben, who I'd met before briefly I believe. He said that he said, that G-d had given him the gift of music and he wanted to give it back to Him, he was a guitarist so didn't solve our drummer problem but He was clearly onboard with the vision so we've invited him along to the next practice.
Having an extra guitarist bring so many positives, we have more to play around with and can add alot of extra elements, but does 3 guitarists really work? Can we make it work? If anyone's gonna step back it's going to be me, he's a better guitarist than me, he sings aswell and probably does that better than me too. Am I going to be pushed out? Do I feel threatened. Indeed the place I am in the band is because G-d put me there and has nothing to do with ability. It still plays on my mind though. If this band is about G-d and not me I have to put my pride aside, my wills and my desires don't count. Does that mean I should step back and fill the gap the absent drummer leaves? After all what's the point in 3 guitarists and no drummer when one of those guitarists plays drums? But then it's imperative in what we're doing to be passionate about what you're doing, passionate about G-d, passionate about music and passionate about the music you're playing for Him. I don't think I could feel that passion when stuck behind a drum kit, it's just not where i wanna be, does that mean that i'm doing this for my sake, for my pride and not for G-d?
All these questions are going through my head and i don't know what to do. Good job it's not up to me to work it all out. i guess i should let go and let it go where it goes. G-d has it under control after all.
Peace be with you.