I've made a decision that everytime I feel this pain and sadness that always seems to crawl up on me I'm going to pray for others. I get consumed by my troubles because I look at me, I look at them. I want G-d to lift me up above them, I want to fix my eyes on Him and put all things in His hands. I've slowed down and I've started to enjoy life as it passes by, it's beautiful, but it will never be as beautiful as G-d, I'd give it all up tomorrow for Him.
He's been challenging me today, to do something I really don't want to do, it scares me but I'm excited about what He may do through it, very excited.

Teach me to be like You Jesus, fill my heart with compassion.

I'm off to my deer park wall, I'll miss that when I move.
Peace