The sky, meant to fly.

i just saw the most beautiful sky, it was red and i caught sight of it through the bare branches of a tree. It would of usually made me smile, but it didn't, it seemed to drown me in sadness, it made me feel useless like i was comparing myself to it and found myeslf to be far more inferior. i gazed at it for about 5 minutes, my eyes fixated on the image that had been presented to me. i thought about how distant the sky was, how even though i could see it, i could not touch it, i could not possess it. In my moment of despondence i called out to G-d, then as if it was His answer (and i'm quite sure it was) the song "mountains high" by delirious was selected to play on my mp4 player.

"Sorrow came to visit us today
Was the longest day, was the loneliest day
Sorrow came to steal our hope away
Only tears can tell
Of this holy hour

This mountain's high, too high for us
This mountain's high, too high for us
Too high

Sorrow came quicker than a fire
Was the longest day, was the loneliest day
I feel your hand, the warmth, your sweetest smile
But you slipped away, through the great divide

This mountain's high, too high for us
This mountain's high, too high for us
This mountain's high, too high for us
This mountain's high, too high for us
Oh yeah
You know I'll make it

Your ways are high, too high for us
Your ways are too high, too high for us
Your ways are too high, too high for us
Your ways are too high, too high

Only you
only you
only you can pull me over it

Only you
only you
only you can pull me over it

Pull me, drag me, hold me, keep me, walk me while
you pull me over it
Take me, heal me, make me, break me, love me while
you pull me over it
Take me, heal me, make me, break me, love me while
you pull me over it"

Perfect.

There is a scripture that talks about G-d raising us up on wings like eagles. Maybe i can't reach the sky but G-d can, through Him i can.

i also remembered how when me and lydia broke up all those years ago she told me that she was holding me back and she said the words "you were meant to fly". Those words have stayed with me.
i'm meant to fly, i know that's true, to rise up through G-d much farther than i can reach, to rise up above this darkness.

Shalom