I'm listening to John Reuben at the moment, I often feel the need to share what I'm listening to at the start of blogs or journal entries, like it's an insight into my current mood and it often is. However right now John Reuben is on for convenience more than for the fact that he empaphises with my indifference.
It's been a stressful week, I've felt like I've not stopped, I've been ill and had no time or rest to recover. There's been a lot of good through out but with no time to unwind or unload my head it all sort of creates a single constant noise in my head. Constant thoughts that lack coherency. But G-d has been speaking and I've been trying to listen. I feel like when I finally stop and the mist clears I'm in for a revelation, some insight will be left.
He's been speaking to me about identity and not being ashamed of it, in the past I've bent who I am to the shape and mould that I think will please others and make me liked. Now I want to live to the will of G-d first and foremost, I want to be who he made me to be unashamedly. Converstations, songs and thoughts have all been saying this recently. I'm excited and scared.
Shalom
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