Remember

Change, I long for it, then when it comes I miss the familiar, contentment is ever so evasive, but I'm learning and I'm trying to embrace a new perspective.
Right now I sit in a small dark room upstairs in the house I moved into a few weeks ago. I love it here, my friend Pete who I'm living with is a bit of a legend and I feel like we've made the most of this house. We're blessed that's for sure. Sky Sports, Darts, music and PES have become the most used features and I feel like I'm learning to relax and just enjoy life rather than pushing myself and beating myself up all the time. Things are looking up, the world cup's on, it's been crap so far but it's on and I'll enjoy every minute. Things in Early to the Vineyard are awesome and I can't quite believe we're going to be on tele. More important than that though I'm enjoying playing the songs and just being with the guys more than ever. I think that's important, enjoy what you have, be grateful for it, thank G-d for it, but also in thanks give it back to Him. Me and Pete have talked a lot about how seeming we're blessed with this wonderful house we'd love to share it, to use it to bless others in whatever way that works out. Music's blessed me, I want to use it to bless others, and as I learn more and more that this life is a blessing I want my life to be one that blesses others too.
I think back now on all those times I sat and wrote in this blog, moaning, upset at what I didn't have or at some mess I couldn't take my mind from when all the time I was so blessed. My family, my band, my friends, the fact that I have a job, somewhere to live, this computer, the chance to write this, so much freedom, a vote, sports, games, laughs, my guitars, my church and so very much more, these are all so beautiful and yet take all these things from me and I am still blessed because I have my G-d, the one who died on a cross for me, the one to whom nothing could ever compare, this is the greatest joy of all. let me not forget that.
I can't promise that I won't be back here again sometime once again moaning or expressing thoughts of sadness but I hope that when I do maybe I'll scroll down and this entry will serve as a reminder, a light shining amongst dark posts.
G-d let me not forget you.
I am thankful for who I am and I'm thankful for who you are too, whoever that is. So often I look at the brilliance of others and am saddened by the way I could never compare. Yet G-d made me and I will make the most of who He made me to be and try to appreciate the brilliance of others instead of longing for comparison.
I've just realised that this probably sounds like some cliched reformation, it just feels like a steady revelation to me.
My friends be blessed and don't forget that you are.
Shalom.