The last few days haven't been easy for me, it's hard to care about someone while knowing it's not you that has the ability to make them smile, laugh or feel. But with sadness comes feeling and in this state life seems so much more meaningful. It's like everything in life becomes so much more meaningful , the things i love i know treasure, like family, friends, nature, hot chocolate, music and most of all the love of G-d. I know G-d has a reason for everything and when I learn to love and be thankful for the things I have instead of always wanting what I can't have I start to believe this too. The reason I feel this way is to teach me to contentment, to teach me to love and be thankful. If this sadness is the cost which i have to carry with me in order to stay awake to life, to truly appreciate everything it brings, then it's worth it. But I think G-d will heal this perpetual sadness when the time is right and I'll just be left with a love for life, those I share it with and most of all for Him.
So many people drift through life, they go from day today without truly living or experiening. So many people don't know what it's like to cry at a film, to have their spine tingle from a song, to get lost in a book, to savour the taste of coffee, to watch the sun rise or set, to stare at stars, to be truly vulnerable with someone you love and to fall in love with the creator of it all.
If that's you then here's an idea -
Set aside a day:
(This plan is weather permitting so feel free to change and adapt to whatever fits for the weather, or just for you, be creative.
1) Wake up early enough to watch the sun rise. Don't even get dressed but go out in your pyjamas, take your quilt with you, find a nice spot and sit and watch.
2) Have breakfast, I mean really have breakfast. Not shovelled down so you're not late for whatever you're doing with your day, but sit with some pleasant music on, something meaningful and happy. Eat slow, sip and not gulp your coffee and while you do read something good, the best choice would be the bible.
3) Buy a nice packet of biscuits and go to the centre of your village/town/city/where people are. Hand out the biscuits to passers by, just to bless their day with a biscuit. Have a big smile and be friendly and conifdent. If people ask why you're doing it tell them just because you love people and you wanted to bless their day with a biscuit. Talk to people, listen to people, really listen.
4) Buy a gift for a friend, maybe someone's been talking about a cd or book, or film or anything they want, buy it and take it to their house, be sneaky and post it through their door with an anominous later saying it's from a friend who was just thankful for their friendship and wanted to show it.
5) Time to cook lunch. Whatever you want, take time to cook it, take time to prepare it properly and take time to enjoy it. Listen to something upbeat and good to dance and sing along too while you cook and do just that, dance and sing along. Then sit and eat outside, watch birds or just the sky.
6) Time for your passion, what do you love to do, what are you passionate about, do it. If you're not sure what then write a poem, do your best, see how it goes.
7) Take a walk, talk to G-d while you do, talk about what makes you sad and what makes you happy. Be honest with him, learn to let go and open up to him, tell yourself you can trust him and know that he's in control.
8) Go to a coffee shop and get a hot chocolate, then take out a notebook/journal and write your thoughts, your feelings, what's happened in your life recently, how it made you feel, memory's, what you miss, what you want. What you love and most importantly how you feel.
9) Organise to meet up with some good friends and go to somewhere in the countryside or a park. Get there in time to sit and watch the sunset together. Then make a campfire. Take a bbq and have some good food together while you sit round and eat talk. Start by asking everyone to say one thing about each person there that they really like. Hopefuly this will encourage and spark open and meaningful coversation. Be vulnerable with each other.
10) Then while you sit round the campfire get out a guitar or acoustic instrument of your choice, sing and play songs together.
11) Go back to someones house and stay over there. Get popcorn and a beverages and watch a film together, something sad and meaningful with a happy ending,
12) Escape to somewhere quiet and read back your journal entry from earlier. Tell yourself that G-d is in control of it all, thank him that he is, thank him for the day, thank him for all the things you love. Pray for those you love and for someone you find difficult, ask G-d to take care of them too.
13) Go back to your friends, and listen to some instrumental or neo-classical music while you talk and then sleep.
Remember your blessed and G-d loves you.
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