rejoice?

"Wouldn't it be wonderful if everything was meaningless? but everything is so meaningful and most everything turns to shit! rejoice"
So beautifully sang by david bazan in his pedro the lion days.
Everything seems so meaningless to me at the moment, like with the band mainly, with it's "impending doom" i just don't care anymore. It looks like we may not even get too play the songs after the album now cause we'll split straight away and i just don't see a point in doing the album now, i feel proper unmotivated and don't see a purpose anymore. I can't tell the band, no one reads these so it's ok, my little space to say what i'm really thinking and feeling and for me at the moment my life just involves a band that has no future and a girl who i care about too much and who doesn't care about me atall.
Everything turns to shit, rejoice? it's not as beautiful being meaningless as i thought it would be.