I said my goodbyes with a solemn remark, but no convincing stopped this pounding inside of my heart, beating in time to a different story, screaming this is not the end.
Words and confusion mix in my mind and flow out like a the river that brought me here. I guess it's pride that keeping me here, we all make mistakes, i acted like a fool, i acted like a man. "So sorry to tumble this throne", and now i see, i'm no different to you but at least we're in this together and we'll always overcome.
Thursday, 17 April 2008
Saturday, 12 April 2008
under the sheets
The taste of wine on her lips, the only reason you're not alone tonight.
Alone in this dark room, you would die tonight.
The way you clasp your cold hands between your knees as the feeling returns, a reminder of why
you should never touch a frozen heart, but there's peace in the quiet when the lord speaks.
There's something in your mind that compels you to hurt those who care most about you.
There'll be nothing left to care about soon, for now at least you have your goodbyes and the memory of how she smiled when she lay.... under the sheets.
Alone in this dark room, you would die tonight.
The way you clasp your cold hands between your knees as the feeling returns, a reminder of why
you should never touch a frozen heart, but there's peace in the quiet when the lord speaks.
There's something in your mind that compels you to hurt those who care most about you.
There'll be nothing left to care about soon, for now at least you have your goodbyes and the memory of how she smiled when she lay.... under the sheets.
Wednesday, 12 March 2008
Wednesday, 5 March 2008
eyes down
I keep these eyes to the ground so no one can see inside, eyes once so wide open but now my heart is battered and bruised. I can't take another lonesome fall.
They tell me there's a love that can break through this barrier, but you seem so distant, and i know i'm the one to blame but my strength has run out so could you shoulder a little blame?
She looks so warm as i watch her from afar and wander, could she be the one to revive my heart? As she draws closer i found myself...... looking down again.
I'd like nothing more than to see her face but i can't take another rejection and i don't believe i could ever be accepted, not any more. So is this where it ends? A lifetime in this childish phase, i see the days pass me by knowing it could be so different, but too afraid to make the step and too confused to know which way to make it anyway.
Could you please give me a little strength and guide me along the way, cause i don't wanna waste another day.
"You can all the strength you need my child, just follow me and you'll be ok"
They tell me there's a love that can break through this barrier, but you seem so distant, and i know i'm the one to blame but my strength has run out so could you shoulder a little blame?
She looks so warm as i watch her from afar and wander, could she be the one to revive my heart? As she draws closer i found myself...... looking down again.
I'd like nothing more than to see her face but i can't take another rejection and i don't believe i could ever be accepted, not any more. So is this where it ends? A lifetime in this childish phase, i see the days pass me by knowing it could be so different, but too afraid to make the step and too confused to know which way to make it anyway.
Could you please give me a little strength and guide me along the way, cause i don't wanna waste another day.
"You can all the strength you need my child, just follow me and you'll be ok"
an artists pain
My dreams are like a rainbow made from tears and the light in my eyes but the closer i get the further they move away and they're gone when the sunlight fades.
There's someone in the distance following the same road as me, but these tired legs hold me back, the closer i get the further they move away and they're gone when the sunlight fades.
My fingers are freezing as i turn these ideas in to something tangible but i can't trust my mind to retain anything these days, it just slips down in to my heart where it's lost forever more.
The door was open to her but she was so right not too step inside where she'd of been closed up and lost forever more.
She used to watch me walk that gravel path towards her house but how she's closed the door and i'm lost forever more.
Atleast you can't get lost when you're walking in circles i say and you look away and reply, "the only way out is to let someone inside."
There's someone in the distance following the same road as me, but these tired legs hold me back, the closer i get the further they move away and they're gone when the sunlight fades.
My fingers are freezing as i turn these ideas in to something tangible but i can't trust my mind to retain anything these days, it just slips down in to my heart where it's lost forever more.
The door was open to her but she was so right not too step inside where she'd of been closed up and lost forever more.
She used to watch me walk that gravel path towards her house but how she's closed the door and i'm lost forever more.
Atleast you can't get lost when you're walking in circles i say and you look away and reply, "the only way out is to let someone inside."
scared out of my mind
A brave face on and words too match, this is not the end it's just the next step.
It's not that i don't trust Him, it's just i'm scared out of my mind, 'cause my mind's a scary place to be.
i remember the days we thought this would never end, travelling across the country in worn and battered cars, we were on top of the world.
Must i carry this on alone when we've fought to get this far? 'cause i don't think i have what it takes, but i'm not ready to give up now. So i'll just be grateful for the times we've shared and the way you've shaped the future for this, and i'll do my best too keep it alive.
It's not that i don't trust Him, it's just i'm scared out of my mind, 'cause my mind's a scary place to be.
i remember the days we thought this would never end, travelling across the country in worn and battered cars, we were on top of the world.
Must i carry this on alone when we've fought to get this far? 'cause i don't think i have what it takes, but i'm not ready to give up now. So i'll just be grateful for the times we've shared and the way you've shaped the future for this, and i'll do my best too keep it alive.
Thursday, 21 February 2008
i'm sorry
my blogs have taken a somewhat negative tone recently, i guess i've just been moaning. I've been thinking about it and i actually don't have the right to moan, i seem to focus on the negative and my perception of a situation mentioned in an earlier blog upset a good friend of mine, though she wasn't meant to read it haha.
Anyway my point is that i'm gonna try and view things more positively though i do admit i'm struggling at the moment, with the band splitting something i'd placed so much hope for my future in, but also other things, i just feel like everything's going wrong, but i know it's only cause i'm seeing it that way, i'm gonna try and be thankful though i don't feel like it, i have so much to be thankful for and i have a Hope no one can take away from me.
Anyway my point is that i'm gonna try and view things more positively though i do admit i'm struggling at the moment, with the band splitting something i'd placed so much hope for my future in, but also other things, i just feel like everything's going wrong, but i know it's only cause i'm seeing it that way, i'm gonna try and be thankful though i don't feel like it, i have so much to be thankful for and i have a Hope no one can take away from me.
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